Gosh, I guess you want more!?!

I have come to realize that I didn't give you a ton of details on my health/surgery.

The reason for that is, my blog has been for fun things, family, and girl stuff.  I like to talk about things I love, and not myself.  I like to throw in some humor and be light and interesting {at least I hope I am}.  But, after receiving messages and emails from so many of you, I realized you want to know more, you care, and I can write about this....what would it hurt?!  Maybe, in the end, it will do some good. 

If you know me outside of here...you know, I would rather talk about you.  I'm the girl that will ask about you and check in and tell you how I can relate, but I don't like to have it be all about me.  It can be a little, but not a lot.  I save that for my closest friends and my husband.  However, you are asking, you care and I have stated before...I would want this little blog to be a place where I can influence you for the good.  So, if you don't care or want me to be an influence for good in your life, I guess you can close out the window on this blog, or never open a post going forward.  Long story short, I am learning that you like to know me on the inside and I should not care if I am boring you with my crap.  And isn't that life?  It's not always good.  Get ready, this might turn into a book.

I went for my yearly last Friday.  I had had some issues with not being able to empty my bladder last Spring and had some spotting here and there over the last couple of months.  No pain really.  He did an ultrasound a found a cyst the size of a baseball.  Now, I love my doctor.  You need a good gynecologist?  Dr. Eric English is his name and it's crazy how many women go to him that I know.  He has this thing where when he is trying to figure out what is wrong with you that he gives the entire spectrum.  It's good.  It's bad.  It's horrible, actually.  Cuz, your mind can go....to the places, you wish it wouldn't.  He said, there isn't blood flow in the cyst, so that's good.  Cancer in a cyst usually has blood flow.  But, he said that word, he went there.  He suggested a hysterectomy.  I am done with having babies and this could be the answer to my urinating issue.  He will use the "da Vinci" process.  You can go ahead and Google that.  Overall, it's less invasive and much faster recovery.  

Cysts are super common, ladies.  After talking with lots of you, I realize this is common.  However, its a big one...one that I hope doesn't burst while I wait for my surgery date....cuz I hear the pain from that is horrible.  I probably don't have cancer, right?  But, your mind goes there.  Especially when you have a Mom that had breast cancer and hasn't been the same ever since.  

He will biopsy it while I am under anesthesia....and the results will determine his next steps.  The goal is to get rid of the cyst and my uterus, but keep my cute little ovaries so I don't go into menopause.  If he gets a bad report, that's when he will look further and take more if necessary....lymph nodes and stuff.  I don't want to Google that, cuz I can't go there right now. 

Part of me didn't want to tell anyone.  Of course I told Brandon and some friends and my Mom.  When you start telling people, the anxiety can set in.  People have concerns, questions and stories of what they have heard.  It's all well and good, but it's information that I have in my cute little brain now.  I don't like to be a focus.   

I am learning.  I want to encourage you to go to your yearly exams...whether you are having sex or not, whether you have babies or not, just go.  And don't wait to go till there is a problem...cuz I didn't have pain.  I have symptoms.  Now, I have knowledge too.

I didn't think having the surgery was a big deal until I told people.  Yes, I went for my yearly and was in shock of what's inside me...but, I thought no more periods!  No more birth control!  No more still thinking there was a chance I could get pregnant!  But, I'm still a little scared.  Scared of what I don't know....and how you can be going about life and stuff like that hits you...it hits all of us, doesn't it?

And this is where I can hope to be some help to you.  I have a peace and a calmness about this surgery, this issue.  I know it's not in my hands.  It's in the hands of my Maker and my doctor.  Two people I have faith in.  I have faith in their level of experience in the things of life.  Most of all, I know I have friends that are the "praying" kind.  They love me and have lifted me up and put my surgery date on their calendar.

I have a husband of little words, but he has had more hugs for me lately.  He has made it clear that he is the one who wants to care for me...to leave his work for a bit and wait on me.   That gives me peace too.

{From "Love Actually", you gotta see that movie!}

So thank you to you friends, who have concerns and offer to help

with my babies and my husband.  

Thanks to those who have reached out and told me you love

me...cuz I knew you did, but now I know more that you do.

Thanks to those who have said they will pray.

I find it helpful to ask people what they want me to pray

for when they are in need.

I can get specific for you.

Pray....

...that I continue to bring this to God.

....that I have less fear and anxiety

...that it is a standard procedure and I wake to a good report.

....that I keep my cute little ovaries.

.....that I keep on letting you in, cuz you have let me in now, in some way

Positivity

Sometimes he puts his hands near his face when he smiles,

he's a little bashful that way.

 

We are working on confidence, and

speaking clearly about what he wants/needs.

The other morning I was scratching his back as he 

watched cartoons, I was still laying in bed.

He turned around and said "Who's lovin' on me?".

That's the stuff that makes a Mom smile.

 

Most arguments with her are because she is busy with something,

and can't be bothered to listen to her Momma.

She can be sassy, but she's mostly sweet.

 

 We are working on respect for authority

and consideration for others.

Most of all, those pictures show some good kids.

It was recommended to me and I have shared with 

others.....The Beep Boop App.

It's only available on the Iphone.

 You should give it a try.

It's for positive re-enforcement.

As far as discipline goes...

the more I do now...the less I will have to do later!

On a totally, less fun note.

I just found out I need to have surgery :(

Something about a baseball size cyst on my ovary.

So, if you are the praying kind, I need them.

Especially on the morning of November 12th.

I will be having a hysterectomy.

I am looking at the positives....

it may weigh 10 pounds and that could make a nice

number on the scale the next time I go

to weigh-in.

And...no more Aunt Flo.

I blog about a Diva Cup and Thong underwear,

and look what happens!

Which I guess is interesting....isn't it?

So....I will focus on this:

Toodles...

Ohhh Robie!

You girls....you know who you are.

The girls that love to clean.

Yeah, you love to scrub and vacuum and dust and it makes you

so happy and fulfilled.

When you are done, do you sit on your couch with 

a glass of wine and just smile at your work?

I'm not that girl.

I like to have my home picked up and everything has

it's place.  

I like to organize and purge.

But, scrubbing and dusting are not my thing.

Now hear this, when I do scrub and dust....

I feel good!  I look around and think "yeah, this is nice"

or "smell that bleach" and "look at those vacuum marks".

But, I would rather decorate.

I got this new rug....

Try to ignore the cute kids and see my new

chevron rug.  

I found it at RugsUSA.com.  

They had a blowout sale.

Shipping was free too!  I think it was $99 for an 8 x 10.

That's a good price.

So, if you are in the market, keep an eye on that site.

And this next item, will change your life.

I mean it.  Well, it did mine.

It's changed mine and I have owned it for less than 72 hours.

The Roomba.

 

Do you have one?

Don't you love it?!

It's "Robie" in our house.

Tonight...I actually sat on my bed and watched it work!

This is an example of the pattern it makes and how it works.

If you are clueless...it's a vacuum that goes around on it's own.

You charge it, press a button and it does it's thing.

I found one on Craigslist for $50 and asked Branmuffin

to go get it.  

Of course, he needed to be convinced....

Roomba's are priced as high as $1200!!!

Not my Robie.

I love my little Robie.

Am I missing out on anything else?

You people who love to clean....what else should I get my hands on?!

Toodles...