She's watching me...

I had heard it a few times before 

and kinda believed it, but I thought I had time.

It came from my friends, or my Mom, or other Moms.

Moms of daughters, in particular. 

They would say,

"She's watching your every move, you know."

"Be careful, she will pick up on that."

It's that time.

It's happening already and she just turned 5 years old last month.

Kinda sad, but I better take full responsiblity or

we will be in trouble....we, referring to her Dad and I.

My daughter grabs my tweezer imitating me, looking for gray hairs, 

or tries to make her hair wavy, like mine. 

She wants my lip gloss after  I apply it.

And when I get dressed in the morning, she

usually says "Ohh cute Mommy, I like your shirt.  Will you 

save that for me when I get bigger?".

I never explain, "it won't be in style" or it'll probably

"never be your size".  I just say, "Of course I will, Tatum."

Then I kiss her on the forehead and tell her

how nice she is, and that she's absolutely gorgeous.

So you know where that brings me?

I wear thong underwear.

There, I said it. I'm getting personal again, aren't I?

That's prolly gonna be a problem then, isn't it?

She and her brother have mentioned it, "Mommy, why 

does your underwear not cover your boom-boom?".  

{That's what we call em' in our house.}

And what do you say to that?  

"I wear a thong cuz that's the underwear I started

wearing 20 years ago and it's cuz it's comfortable to me?"

I didn't have a daughter 20 years ago.

But, I do now.  

She watches me like a hawk.

I never use words like, skinny or fat, or big.

I don't even want them in her vocab.

Most of all,  I always compliment her spirit, her smile,

her laugh and how pretty she is.  

I make sure I tell her she is smart too, I think

that's important for a girl to hear.

What was supposed to be me talking about "thong underwear"

has turned into "raising your daugther".  

I didn't mean for that.

But, I can't talk about my daughter and not

tell you I have hopes for her and want her to 

have a blessed life.  I want to protect her from pain.

And, I want her to be confident.

I could care less if she becomes a hair dresser or

a scientist, a professional ballet dancer, or a

doctor.  I just want her to love it....to sparkle while she

does it.  To know she was meant to do "it".

So, this is where I need your help.

The 16 year old girl at Nordstroms told me "boy shorts" are

what everyone is wearing.  So, I found a few pairs that I like.

They are comfy.  

I'd rather wear something I don't have to 

explain to my daughter.  I am the example now, aren't I?

Tell me what you wear?!

Tell me where to get them.

I may even need the style number so I can get it right.

Cuz, I went to this.....

 ...and I think with these, I will have less

explainin' to do.

I can't be the only one still wearing thongs.....